Isotopes - Nightmare

All I'm seeing is red
I'm caught inside of my head
I need to learn how to let go, and just take a breath
This demon inside me
Is vicious and frightening
No remorse for the ones I love
Will he feed again? Will I let him in?

Paralysed
I'm living with a nightmare
Tearing apart my loved ones
I know it's not fair
Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late
I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken

Is it all part of a nightmare?
I'm wide awake, but not in control
Seems too overwhelming
To shake free from his hold
I feel weak at the knees
But I'm tired of losing sleep
The only way I'll break free
Fight the nightmare fighting me

I tried to kill myself December 17th
(What's come of me?)
The person that I once was almost got the better of me

I'm paralysed
I'm living with a nightmare
Tearing apart my loved ones
I know it's not fair
Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late
I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken

I hope you know, you brought out the worst in me

I push you all away
To keep my mind at ease
The nightmare comes and takes my strength
I feel I'm caving in
I'm lost within my thoughts
Deaths come to collect my soul
The reaper looks and turns away
It’s now a story to be told

Paralysed
I'm living with a nightmare
Tearing apart my loved ones
I know it's not fair
Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late
I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken

I can't go living with the way I feel
When you have put me through so much hell
The thought of heaven is so unreal
When I've been living through so much hell